Kalimah cinta kali ini aku lafazkan pada Rabbi. Alhamdulillah ala kulli hal.
Berhabuk dah haaaa. maafkan saya lama tidak menyentuh "benda" ni . I have more necessary things need to be completed instead of typing, writing in this blog, so i apologize you my lovy blog.
I know, i will never live longer in this world. This world is temporary but i dunno why i think like i will always be here like Hereafter is never exist. Full of shit.
Yeah! today, im coming back to this home of knowledge. CFS IIUM. i have nothing if i do nothing. So today, i get my promise to change to another me. I need to take barrier of ikhtilat into my self because this should be affected my life as im too friendly man and too much words to be talking with especially girl becoz they have lots of topic to be talking. Then, I wanna struggle in this semester becoz i need to increase my pointer. Who knows that this semester actually i need to crazily struggle myself to increase to be listed in dean list.
My mom said, "you have much time to do revision, review and complete ur tasks so dun make other things become burden on you. You life is in ur own determination. Remember this"
But what is going to be upset of my life, i dunno when, where and how should i start my murajaah al-Quran. This thing is crucially important to my life. Once people see in me, i have a book of holy words. But in me myself knows that i do nothing to keep it. This Al-Quran will be kept if people do securing their heart properly. Like a house which is has gold then people need to create number password of security guard to ensure that it will be saved in there. Then should curious of other parts that could be opened. So it so hard right. Then that my path until i died because Allah gave me what other people hardly to get it. Chosen people only will be selected to keep it. So rarely get, hardly keep.
Alhamdulillah, sehingga saat ini masih lagi dapat bernafas walaupun nafas itu bercampur asap jerebu. Setidaknya aku masih, BerNyawa.
I got a new small family here, it called Family of EnT. What does it means, maybe some people will ask it by themselves. Actually it is a short form of Education and Training Committee.
Once i got stucked with them, it started putting me a smile and ready to laugh. I have two seniors with me in this organization. They are Bro Muaz and Kak Ziha. They absolutely awesome because they created our relation became strengthen each day.
but...... counting day to be leaved by them. hmmm no im not willing to endure this feeling.
because they love each other than spread to us too, makes our EnT's family become closer. yeah, i will miss both of u
When it comes to turn myself from doing like what i want, it difficult.
But to satisfy people around, i should do my best.
Becoz i believe whenever i treat people with my best, then Allah will reward it back to me.
Nostalgia itu masih di dalam ingatan. Takpa selagi Allah redha apa yg terjadi aku kira itu Mihnah dlm mendewasakan aku sehingga aku menjadi terbaik utk diriku sendiri. Banyak kesedihan aku lalui, tapi apa yg dirasai hanyalah sedikit kesedihan jika dibandingkan dgn apa yg Tuhan gajarkan pada aku kini.
Kebahagian, Manusia mana tidak ingin?
Tapi sekali kau dapat, kau akan igt utk bertahun-tahun.
namun, ia lagi cepat hilang dibandingkan dgn Kesedihan.
Kesedihan, manusia mana ingin?
Tapi sekali kau dapat, bekasnya masih terparut.
ia bukan seperti kebahagian, ia masih diingat walau ia sudah lama.
Dalam hidup, ada yg dapat dan ada yg pergi. Samada kita sedar atau tidak sahaja akan setiap perkara itu berlaku atas kehendaknya.
Kadang aku sendiri jatuh dalam lembah sama, walau aku dah bangkit darinya tapi aku still jatuh pada tempat sama. Aku sendiri tak tahu kenapa. mgkin iman aku belum cukup untuk menjauhkan aku daripada petaka(maksiat)
Aku manusia dan aku hina,
Lemah itu biasa,
Hebat itu rasa.
Tapi dalam masa sama, inginkah aku kalah di akhir, maksudnya di Akhirat, dimana waktu Nabi sangat merindui umatnya disana. Aku yg tgolong dalam golongan yg jauh darinya. Nauzubillah T.T
Aku umatnya, dia merindui aku, tapi apakah aku kini sudah bersedia menemui yg mulia itu?
Ya Allah, aku mohon, izinkan aku beribadah sepenuh hati keatas mu dahulu sblm aku melangkah ke dunia lain, aku tak sanggup dgn rasa sgt hina ini, biarlah cinta antara kita menyebabkan aku ingin menemui mu. Tipu aku tak pernah kecewa cinta mu, tipu!!
Ya Allah, kalau hari ni aku jatuh dan tersempang jauh dari Mu, tolonglah ya Allah, kau betulkan dan tarik aku ke jalan benar.
Aku tahu, kau sahaja tahu apa masalah aku yg aku tidak utara kan pada manusia. biarlah manusia berbicara yg kalau ada masalah kongsi bersama, tapi masalah yg besar sebegitu aku kira, antara kau dan aku sudah cukup.
For me, when it blows smoothly with ur hard feeling.
It gives you calmness.
a deep calmness.
To have a good emotion.
People have their own ways to be better but how can we have it when the problem coming to us. We prefer to solve them but at the same time our feeling going out like we are crazy.
Allah said : "Allah with them who are patient" and Rasulullah said :" Don't angry"
The gorgeous of yours will be presenting while you are having a patience, sometimes you need to be more rational person. With a smile you might changing your whole day.
I know, when the time to be coming it really wants us to explode the feeling. However, if you have the time to calm yourself, people will respect you more than you explode the feeling and tell them what is in your heart.
It called the Gorgeous. You know why Rasulullah is the Most Gorgeous one to our vision, because of his patience. That why people respect him more even there are a lot of Kafirian hate him damn much.
it will present when you give a sincere smile while you have such a bad feeling.