please dont ask me why am i just suddenly write something here.. i will always question myself why im not writing something new to post and share with everyone what should i share.. exactly my answer will only becoz im too embarrassed of myself for you my dear blog. now im not the same like i used to be before.
now im telling you the truth, i miss everything i have done before. k bye. such a confession, my ego is precious.
sometimes i always do ask myself, am i good enough to other? as i just only wanna people become similarly from what in my mind. if i wait for this i should say, "buddy, u will keep dreaming for nothing"
look at this world, please step up to the reality. this world is the one who never care of ur sadness n hope. what u should only do is keep pushing efforts to things u used to do. becoz life is cruel. *i guess*
Going back to Allah is something i always do in my life but do i keep giving my best to Him? such a no answer would be given. kah3 im joking to myself. please la, Allah is not the one who u can kidding with. becoz of His patient, i still alive and survive until today.
he never give me hardness before and everything when i need help and ask for Him to ease me, He's like quickly replied my dua. And now, im asking Him to please give me back to become closer to Him and He pays with the difficulties that beyond my expectation. if i tell u He is cruel, u will tell me that im not grateful. Yes! i do support ur answer. Allah gives me this coz He knows i can endure n bear all this problem. one thing, i need to accept that this things will happen one day. So now, i just praying to Him to give me strengths for me to ease everything with His wills.
insyaAllah. goodnite PJ. I love you.
Goodnite Dad and Mom, i hope u can sleep soundly and wake up with smiley. from me, ur stubborn son but still love both of you.
|i miss. ahhhhhhhhhhh|