Salty of mine.

Hey Assalamualaikum..

Im coming back from long time no post..

Today, i just wanna tell everything just for you dad.
what my life happened today and before.

Dad,
I Miss you.
This what wont change forever as after you left me for a better place.
Im doing good dad, sure im doing good.
But i miss everything between us.

Dad,
im crying all day missing you until when old men walk by me, im imagined they always you.

Dad,
Mom needs you now dad. Help me to recover all her pains from losing you.
She's no longer stronger than i would say before dad but she does try to look strong over me.

When our last eyes to eyes dad, i remember how you look at me, and it will always be remembered dad especially when im looking at mom before my farewell to go to college. it reminds me all over again.

Dad, i promise you! to be a better son. i pomise.

Dad, haha just wanna tell you, the girl i used to like and care of before until now and i showed you before now clapped my hand. How im happy and yeah i do wanna tell you the day im coming back but you're not there. its okay dad. But dad, she's good, nice and even know how to comfort me. She teaches me a lot until today.

Dad, i promise myself to marry her if Allah wills us.

Today, our family also do good dad. They become better day by day. May Allah has granted all your prayers.

Dad. Be happy there.Until we meet again. Bye.

a calling for hope

Assalamualaikum,

please dont ask me why am i just suddenly write something here.. i will always question myself why im not writing something new to post and share with everyone what should i share.. exactly my answer will only becoz im too embarrassed of myself for you my dear blog. now im not the same like i used to be before.

now im telling you the truth, i miss everything i have done before. k bye. such a confession, my ego is precious.

sometimes i always do ask myself, am i good enough to other? as i just only wanna people become similarly from what in my mind. if i wait for this i should say, "buddy, u will keep dreaming for nothing"

look at this world, please step up to the reality. this world is the one who never care of ur sadness n hope. what u should only do is keep pushing efforts to things u used to do. becoz life is cruel. *i guess*

Going back to Allah is something i always do in my life but do i keep giving my best to Him? such a no answer would be given. kah3 im joking to myself. please la, Allah is not the one who u can kidding with. becoz of His patient, i still alive and survive until today.

he never give me hardness before and everything when i need help and ask for Him to ease me, He's like quickly replied my dua. And now, im asking Him to please give me back to become closer to Him and He pays with the difficulties that beyond my expectation. if i tell u He is cruel, u will tell me that im not grateful. Yes! i do support ur answer. Allah gives me this coz He knows i can endure n bear all this problem. one thing, i need to accept that this things will happen one day. So now, i just praying to Him to give me strengths for me to ease everything with His wills.

insyaAllah. goodnite PJ. I love you.

Goodnite Dad and Mom, i hope u can sleep soundly and wake up with smiley. from me, ur stubborn son but still love both of you.

i miss. ahhhhhhhhhhh